Saturday, May 23, 2015

9 months

9 months in, 9 months out. Our LO is 40 weeks this week, which means he has hit his inside-out day (spent longer out than in). I technically gave birth 3 days before my due date, but whatever. Close enough. I actually meant to do this post last week, but it didn't happen. I had to read my last update to remember what has happened in the past month (maybe I should write these things down).

9 month stats:
Weight: 22.75 lbs
Height: 30 inches
Percentile: 97th for height, 92nd for weight
Diaper size: 4
Clothes: 6-12 month or 12-18 month. We use both right now. The long sleeve 6-12 month are getting really snug, but the short sleeve still fit perfectly.
Milestones/Physical therapy: Claps hands, much more babbling in the past month (lots of "dada", "baba", "yaya", and some "mama"), little guy wants to be mobile so badly - he actively gets from sitting to his belly by starting to crawl, but doesn't have enough strength to sustain the position so he ends up on his belly wiggling around. He has started pushing up from his belly, which means he essentially goes backwards, which is very frustrating for him. He has gained more trunk control and is reaching all over the place/lunging for things he wants. We started PT yesterday and the occupational therapist gave me a lot of good suggestions for showing him how to sit up from laying down, stand from sitting and teaching him to crawl. I'm excited about working on those things with him, since I can tell he really wants to do them (he tries really hard). The goal is that he is crawling by August.
Feeding: We do a combination of finger foods and purees still. He is pretty good at grabbing the spoon and bringing it to his mouth. He is also good at making a mess. He still gets 3 7 oz bottles a day, but doesn't always finish them. Considering how much he weighs, I don't force him to eat. His growth has been fine. As it gets hotter, I'm just trying to offer water, so he doesn't get dehydrated.

We also got family photos done this month. I'm really pleased with how they turned out.

I guess that's all that's new right now.

Friday, April 17, 2015

8 months

It's definitely time for a blog update. This past month has been a whirlwind to say the least. L is now 8 months old! It's crazy that he is only 4 months away from being a year old. How did that happen? Anyway, we are doing well. A couple of big changes happened this month. The first is that I weaned L completely. I had been breastfeeding him once in the morning, but L now has 2 teeth in and umm... ouch! I would like to say our last session was sweet and wonderful, but it was much more, "ow, that really hurts. You want to try again? Oh, no. Ow! Okay, we're done here." Once we stopped our one session, I just wanted to be done. I pumped twice a day for a few weeks and then just once a day in the evenings for a little. My milk turned watery blue. I tried every other day. The first time I went 48 hours, it hurt quite a bit, but then I was done. I pumped one last time and then it was over. I cleaned and sterilized the pumping stuff and put it all away. And it was good. I accomplished my goal of 6 months. I exceeded my goal. And I was ready and L was ready and so we stopped. The biggest downside is that formula is expensive compared to free, but it's okay. L takes 4 bottles a day of 6-7 ounces each and 3 solid meals a day. It works for us. I think in the next month we may be dropping one of the bottles. He barely drinks/loses interest in the morning bottle, so I may drop that one and see how he does. He eats a LOT of solids, so I think he may be okay if we do that. I just may have to slightly increase his solids. He eats mostly purees, but he is showing clear signs for being ready for finger foods, so we'll probably start that soon. He also eats the teether crackers and puffs. 

The other big news is that L rolled back to front this month. Finally. Actually, he was so delayed in rolling that I met with his pediatrician who suggested we contact early intervention. We are still waiting for an assessment. We did do the screening and they suggested moving forward with that so we are. He's still a bit behind with gross motor skills (and communication), so it really can't hurt to meet and see if we can improve his skills. He is not crawling (people keep asking me that, but he literally just rolled over so it's going to be a while). He can sit for long periods of time, but cannot sit up on his own or go from sitting to laying down unless it's accidental. His fine motor skills are pretty good. He is working hard on developing his pincer grip. He is also trying to clap his hands. He will give us "high five" a lot, but doesn't seem to want to do it against his own hand. He shakes his head "no" when you say no. He thinks this is very funny. 

I think the whole situation with L being behind was rather hard for me. I didn't want my baby late for milestones. I was comparing him to other babies. And it wasn't really fair for him or for me. The reality is that my value as a mother and his value as a person is not based on his abilities, but based on who he is. He has inherent value as a child of God. Each of us has inherent value as an image bearer of God. There is reason to celebrate when he reaches milestones. There is reason to work with him more effectively. But there was no reason to be disappointed or less proud of my child just because his accomplishments took longer to achieve. Watching him develop is really cool, even if it means I have to be patient. And it's something I am still working on. And in the meantime, I'm trying to do the best for him that I can. And he is such a sweet baby with a calm temperament. He is curious and thoughtful. And very cuddly and warm. 

This month was also hard for me because my old nemesis, insomnia, came back. Sigh. This last round was fairly intense for me. I don't know if it was the sudden hormonal change with stopping BFing, Luke getting sick or what, but it was rough. However, God really worked in my heart. I feel like he laid bare all the minor things I was consumed with and made me realize how insignificant a lot of those things were. And the importance of relying on Him for my daily bread and strength during the day, rather than focusing inward. 1 Peter 5 was part of my daily readings during this time, and I feel like really helped bring focus and clarity to the situation, especially knowing that my suffering was temporary. 

All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because,
“God opposes the proud
    but shows favor to the humble.”[a]
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.11 To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.
I think God finally gave relief when I submitted fully to His will and laid it all down before Him. It's a daily struggle that I am working through, to not let anxiety rule over my life. I am trying to value and enjoy each day rather than worry. But, it's tough to stop negative thought processes that have been there for a long time. 
This is getting long and I'm pretty sure L will be up from his nap soon. So, if you've made it this far. Here are some pictures from this month (or one day in the park last week). 


Saturday, March 21, 2015

Not a baby post... Finalized Basement Bar area

Guess what? This post is not about the baby! I know, hard to believe. So I realized recently that I neglected to tell you all about our basement bar area. Like, I just never filled you in past installing the cabinets. That was pretty rude of me.

Anyway, this project was finished sometime around when I was still throwing up all the time (which was the first 3/4 of my pregnancy, so it doesn't really narrow anything down). But I think it was around a year ago. Anyway, we had a professional install the countertop, which is Quartz. My dad helped to install the faucet (I believe J also helped) and the fridge. My dad also installed the quarter round at the bottom. The bottom trim still isn't quite right. There's a little piece that is missing. I'm actually not entirely sure what to do to fix it because (a) it's a small area and (b) we don't have the old trim and cannot find matching trim. So... I'm considering either putting in some quarter round or adding a frame type of trim to the whole thing. My folks still have my miter saw at the moment, so it probably won't be done too soon. However, I think it still looks nice as is. It's a huge improvement from where we started.

And as a reminder of where we started... 

I hope you all feel better that I finally concluded that little project (I know I feel better).

I'm hoping to get back into doing more house projects. I went down and organized our basement this week. It made me miss doing some of this stuff. It's just so hard to balance work plus baby plus a semi-social life plus hobbies. My hobbies have really suffered. But I also realize L is only little for a while and I will get more time for hobbies again. I did do a painting of L's silhouette. Since it has his full name, I may not share it, but it was fun to paint again.

Hope you are all having a good weekend. Everyone but me is sleeping at the moment. So, I'm just blogging with the window open while watching March Madness... So nice.


Sunday, March 15, 2015

7 months

Hello there! L is now 7 months old! Crazy right? I feel like the last month went by pretty fast, but it was also a shorter month, so... whatever.

I thought I would fill you in on what we have been up to.


Weight: around 20 pounds

Height: 27.25 inches (at 6 months)

Percentile: 77th for height and weight

Diaper size: currently in 3s, but my next order is for 4s. He's growing out of them like crazy.

Clothing size: He's still in 6-12 months, but it's getting pretty tight. 12 month size in Carter's seem to fit okay. Except pants. Carter's seems to be made for skinny babies, so Carter's pants are a problem for us. For his waist size, they are always too long. And it seems an assumption has been made about growth between 9 and 12 months. The legs in 12 months are really long, but the waist is not that much bigger. This has pretty much led to me abandoning Carter's for now because I can't get the pants above his thighs without a lot of difficulty. The clothes that fit him best right now are Hanna Anderson (size 70), but they are crazy expensive. Gap and Old Navy also seem to work pretty well. My most recent order was for 12-18 months, which I'm holding off on putting him in for now.

Milestones: Reaching and grabbing has really intensified in the past month. He's started lunging for objects he wants now. Just this morning, he was reaching for something and ended up on his tummy from sitting. He was not pleased. However, this seems to be predecessors of mobility. He still has not rolled back to tummy. I truly think he could because rolling him is quite easy, but I don't think he wants to do it. This morning, I finally saw him roll to the left instead of the right! I was super excited. J didn't really see why I was, but I thought it was cool that he could roll both directions. He can sit for as long as he wants. And rarely falls. He's getting better and better with eating off a spoon and recently figured out how to use a sippy cup. What really helped with that was finding one with a removable valve. I took out the valve so water could flow freely. It made a mess, but he figured out that water comes out. Now, he can use the normal ones pretty well.

Sleeping: Mostly been good. I've limited him to 3 naps a day, which has helped a lot with lengthening his naps. He's been waking up recently at night, but I think it's due to teething. Regardless, I'm tired. He's still loving his Zipadeezip. We moved into the mediums. And I have a sleepsack my mom made that I can use when the Zippy is in the wash.

Breastfeeding: We're weaning slowly. I'm down to feeding him from the source in the morning and pumping once at night. The transition from pumping 3x to 2x was no biggie, but getting down to just once was a little painful. I ended up alternating days with it (2x then 1x, etc), which helped. It may be a while before I cut out the night pumping, but I eventually will. I have time. Even with what I'm doing now, it's totally manageable. I'm sick of cleaning pump parts though.

Schedule: We finally have one! And it has made life so much easier! I love it. He naps 3x a day: 8:30, 12 and 3:30. He has a bottle at 11ish, 3ish and 7ish and then nurses at 7 am. Each of his bottles are between 6-7 oz, so I estimate he's getting between 24-28 oz/day. He eats breakfast and lunch after his morning and midday naps, and he has dinner with us around 6:15-6:30. Bedtime is 7:30 pm. He usually wakes around 6 am, but we don't really get up until 7. Sometimes, I bring him to bed with us for some morning cuddles. Or we give him the pacifier and let him chill (sometimes he falls back asleep). Recently, he's been waking once at night, but all we do is give him the pacifier. I have an app that charts his sleep (and everything else) and he averages around 14 hours/day (technically 13.7, but who's counting).

Last weekend, we had L baptized at our church. It was a really special weekend for us. Both J and my parents came. L wore an outfit my mom had made. He was so good for the service, except the loud music scared him.

Pictures from the past month:

Sunday, February 15, 2015

6 month update!

Okay... okay... It's been forever since my last update. L is now officially a half a year old! This time 6 months ago, we were in the hospital with our brand new baby boy. And now, he's peacefully asleep upstairs while J and I watch Harry Potter and drink hot toddys (man, it's cold out!). I seem to have some sort of cold at the moment, and I am just hoping L doesn't get it.

Let's see, I feel like quite a bit has happened since I last updated. L has developed quite a bit since I last wrote. Right before he turned 5 months old, he started rolling from tummy to back! It's been pretty cool. Although at this point, tummy time consists of me putting him on his tummy, he grabs a toy and rolls onto his back to play with it. I can't get him to do any substantial tummy time unless I block him from rolling (and then he cries). Oh well. He also only rolls to the right. He hasn't yet rolled back to tummy. Our pediatrician said it may take a while considering his "substantial mass." Haha. He's currently in the 77th percentile for both height and weight (27.25 inches and 19 pounds), and 98th percentile for head size. He has started grabbing and reaching with intention. He studies objects and toys, grasps them and hits them. He passes objects between his hands. He grabs his feet a lot. He has just started putting weight on his legs when he's held upright. Actually, he doesn't like this at all, but our pediatrician asked me to work on it with him. He blows raspberries, giggles a lot, and is getting more interactive every day. He sits up really well. Like, he can sit for 30 minutes plus on his own. He loves when I sing and dance.

Our nanny also started in early January and has been working out great. Our schedule is finally getting under control. I cut out his 4th nap and stretched out his wake times and he has been having one long nap a day (plus 2 short ones)! Yay! :) We transitioned him out of the swaddle and into the Zipadeezip and he has done really great. He loves his zippy and has slept really well. We are really blessed and lucky. We also started solids, which he is doing great with. He loves bananas. Like obsessed. But he's also doing well with peas, carrots, pears, oatmeal, sweet potatoes and avacado. We are currently doing 2 meals a day, but will increase to 3 soon. We made it to 6 months with breastfeeding! And... I may be about done. L's latch has always been bad, but lately it's gotten really quite painful. He's basically biting down on me all the time. Thankfully he doesn't have teeth. And he honestly seems to enjoy bottles. However, he is not a fan of formula. So, I'll probably work on weaning him soon-ish. Because I really don't want him to cut a tooth with his current latch. :( I'm really proud of us for making it this far, especially with the rough start that we had. I have a lot of mixed feelings about stopping... I feel a little guilty and I know I will miss it to some extent when/if we give it up. But, I think if we are to continue, I would need to go back to the lactation consultant and I'm just not sure it's something I feel that strongly about continuing... Plus, being a type A person, it somewhat drives me nuts that I don't really know how much he's getting. I don't know... we shall see. Every time I think I'm going to stop, I decide not to. I think I need to pray about it.

Okay, that's really all for now. Happy Valentine's and President's Day! Stay warm, friends.

Bonus pics.

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Christmas re-cap

Hello! Happy New Year! I feel like I am slowing coming up for air after the Christmas break. L's first Christmas was... a little disappointing to be honest. I'm really glad he won't remember it. Christmas Eve, L started acting really fussy and wanted to nap all day long. Since I have already talked about the catnapping, you know that long naps are unusual. At around 2 pm, I decided to take his temperature, just in case. Yea, it was creeping up towards 102. At this point, I felt like a horrible parent for not checking it sooner. Luckily, I had packed both a thermometer and Infant Tylenol. We gave him Tylenol, called the pediatrician and waited it out. On the Tylenol, it started going down, thankfully, so we didn't end up going to the ER or Urgent Care. His fever broke that night... around the same time that mine started. I was so sick on Christmas Day, like couldn't pick up the baby sick, not able to move sick. It was awful. L was still fussy and J and my mom were starting to feel ill. My dad really came to the rescue here. He never caught what we had and was willing to walk L around the house for hours to calm him down. He also slept in the same room as L and co-slept with him in the morning so I could get more rest. My mom and I were about 12 hours offset, so she ended up holding L for naps Christmas Day and I did the day after (L was too sick to tolerate being put down for naps). My milk supply also plummeted and I was so thankful I had picked up some formula for the trip (it recovered after about 3 days). So, we never went to Christmas Eve service or to our friend's house for Christmas Day. Bummer. We were also too sick to go to my in-laws when we had planned on it, so that visit got cut short and we didn't end up seeing J's cousins. So, all in all, could have been better. I'm 80% sure we all had the flu. My in-laws also had the flu, so we were all just sort of sick and miserable. Last year, I was pregnant with L and threw up all of Christmas, so next year -- no more sickness at Christmas (New Years Resolution?)!

Prior to our Christmas, L had his 4 month checkup. He did better with shots this time around (yay). He was 16.88 lbs and 26 inches long, which puts him around the 80th percentile for things. After Christmas, J and I both had a week off to spend with L. It was really, really great! We went on some walks, played with him and let him nap in my arms and re-watched House of Cards on mute with captions during naps. He has started getting more interactive. Still no rolling, but he works pretty hard at it when on his tummy. He's growing hair! It's so cute and soft. I think the color is a blondish brown. Eyes are still hazel. He also has been laughing a lot more, which is great.

His sleep has gotten... interesting. We have good days/nights and bad days/nights. J has been really great and has let me sleep and handled some of the wakings. L gets so fussy when he doesn't sleep well (just like his mommy), and I feel so bad for him. I honestly am not sure how to help him more than I am because I am not ready for sleep training yet. I will say I have stopped responding as quickly and he has fussed himself back to sleep a few times.

There's so much more I could write here... so many more thoughts that I have swimming in my head. Most of it fellow moms would recognize. How God has shown me grace with the sleep regression. How He has given me enough sleep and strength to face each day (although I sometimes get cranky). How God is showing me the little blessings. For so long, I have been focused on how hard everything is and needing a break. It is hard, but God has been working in my heart to change my attitude and focus on the unique time that we are in. L won't be a baby forever and I am sure to look back on this time with fondness. And all of the smiles and giggles are just so amazing. I am so enjoying watching L develop and start grasping objects and understanding the world around him a little more. And there is something so precious about a baby sleeping in your arms (albeit less sweet at 3 am). God is still working on the pride in my heart. I see other babies achieve milestones that mine hasn't and I get... well... jealous. Am I doing something wrong? Is my baby not as good? But, that isn't fair to me and it certainly isn't fair to L. He will do things when he is ready. He is developmentally on track and is healthy, and I need to focus on his achievements as they are and not in comparison. It's a lesson I think I will learn over and over and over again as he grows. All we can do is love him and teach him in our own way. And try not to worry about the rest. Having a baby makes it quite plain how little control you actually have. And I need to learn over and over again just to roll with it. I get so hung up on doing the "right" thing instead of just enjoying playing with L.

Anyway, I am completely rambling at this point... there is more going on, so much more. But this is enough sharing for now.


Sitting in his high chair (no solids yet)

Happy in the bathtub!

New tummy time pillow for Christmas

Playing with new blocks

Sucking on the fist

He does this all day long... grabbing the feet. :) It's really cute!

Saturday, December 13, 2014

4 month update

Hey everyone! Where to begin? It's almost been 2 months since I last posted here. A lot has happened. First off, the schedule thing didn't really work out. I tried and I tried and L won. However, we are starting to settle into a routine, I guess. He usually does something consistently for a week then everything changes. He's a really great night sleeper. He goes down around 6:30 pm and wakes up around 7:30 am with one feeding somewhere in there, usually around 5 am. He's also a terrible napper. Like he will only nap 30-40 minutes at a time during the day. I have tried nearly everything to lengthen that but almost nothing will and the few times I have been successful, he didn't sleep at night, so... I deal with the cat naps for now. (Pro-tip: read about baby sleep before you have the baby). Also, I can't really hold him all nap anymore because my arm falls asleep. To say that he is heavy is an understatement. I haven't weighed him since he was 3 months, but he was 16 pounds then! I estimate he's around 18 pounds now. I do plan to let him CIO (cry it out) at some point because I am still rocking him to sleep and awake but drowsy just doesn't work for us. But, he's just too young now (I'm thinking 5-6 months). I've let him fuss, but he just escalates it and won't calm down unless I go in and rock him. We've had some luck with the swing. But, as long as he is sleeping at night, we don't really have a problem, yet... 

We had a rough month in there where L was fussy a lot. I don't know if we were doing anything wrong but I tried to get him to sleep and played with him, but he was just fussy. He is starting to grow out of that now, which is nice. In the past few weeks, he has become much more interactive: he babbles, blows spit bubbles, laughs out loud, and smiles a lot. He is more social than he is into the gross motor skills, but tummy time is going much better these days. He is not rolling over, but I'm seeing definite signs towards it. I practice rolling with him, and have him lay on his side and work out how to do the rest on his own. He sometimes gets frustrated with this, but is making a lot of progress. I'm not in a huge hurry for him to be mobile (we still swaddle him and that needs to stop first), but I do want to give him time to practice. He has also started arching his back a lot, which means I have to strap him into everything now because he could launch himself out of the swing or rock and play fairly easily. He also grabs his legs a lot now. He is super into assisted sitting, but not standing. I honestly don't blame him: he's super heavy for those little legs! I got him an exersaucer, but he's not really quite ready for it. He kind of just sits in it and bobbles his head. I have to be there with him the entire time so he doesn't smash his head into something. 

I've started back at work part time, which is awesome. I, personally, really needed it. One of the things I have realized is that being a stay at home mom is really not for me. I actually give SAHMs a lot of credit -- it is exhausting to do it day after day. I find I am a lot happier if I have some time away. And part time seems to be great for this. It still gives me one-on-one time with L and a chance to continue my bible study, but also an outlet and a chance to do technical work. This month, L has been with family and a babysitter, but we have a nanny starting next month. I think she will be a great fit for our family. We actually really liked the babysitter we used this past week as well. Perhaps I am strange, but I really don't mind leaving L. I have not been upset over it once. I think it's really healthy for us. 

Breastfeeding is still going well, and my plan is to make it to 6 months and then wean him gradually (and plan to be done by 8 months). This means I will have to wean him to formula. I'm okay with BFing, but I also kind of want to stop. He still has a shallow latch, so it hurts still. I hate pumping at work (or in general). We also have a bunch of out of town weddings this summer and I don't want to be pumping all weekend. And by 6 months, I feel like I will have done my duty. 

I would love to get back to some house projects, but with my little cat napper, that hasn't been possible yet. Perhaps when we sleep train, he will start sleeping better for naps. That would be heavenly. Also, if anyone has any good advice for the cat napping problem, I'd love to know. 

Speaking of which, he's awake again... 

Bonus, pictures!

He stretches like crazy when he is released from the swaddle. 

I was burping him.

His going to the bathroom face -- cracks me up!

Tummy time!

Around 3 months

My mom made him this day gown. It would have been perfect for baptism, but we didn't get on the schedule in time...

Bath time

I love this photo

He loves being kissed on the cheeks.

Super happy in the morning.

Really enjoying his mobile.

There's more I forgot. I know there is. Babies are hard. Even easy babies are hard and a huge adjustment. But, we're taking it a day at a time. And doing the best we can. :)